Yesterday's ep? I want to have its little gay soap babies. That was beyond awesome and just, OMG. I CANNOT STOP WATCHING IT. I'm so emotionally spent. I need a cupcake. :(


(original caps by superherofan)

ETA: For some reason, the pics don't seem to be showing up at the mo. *shakes tiny fist* ZIP of all the photos in order --> sendspace


Luke, "You gave me that card. And in it, you thanked me for always standing by you." See, Justin is not the only pitbull when it comes to his man. Just another reason I adore Luke. Also, that he does not knock, just pokes his head in. ♥


Sheriff Snyder, at your service. That belt buckle is killing me. :X


L: I want you to pretend that we're at the farm. And it's dark and we're out on the porch and I just want you to talk to me, Noah.
N: I can't do this now.
Ree: *cries*


FACE HOLD! FACE HOLD! Guh, I love when they do that.


N: Look, I'm not good about talking things out, about talking about how I feel inside, you know that!
L: Oh, really, are we back at that again? Because you really didn't seem to have that problem before we left for NY. We sat, right in there, in that room, and you told me how much you loved me and that you were in love with me. Has that changed?
N: No.
L: Well, could you at least look at me when you say that?
N: No, it hasn't changed. I'm still in love with you.
R: *cries*


SO CUTE. Also, Ethan Reg is sweet. I don't want him getting naked with Luke ever kthx, but I wouldn't mind if he hung around and was all BFFish. Though, hm, that could get messy. Also, his shirt reminds me of that kick-ass blue one Brian had with the embroidered wings on the back. Mmmm. Good times.


N: I have been sitting here, next to you, for fifteen minutes and you haven't even touched me. You haven't touched me since we got back from NY!
L: I don't want to talk about NY!
N: And guess what? The ICE isn't here anymore!
L: That's not fair.
N: And neither is what you're doing to me.
R: *cries and cries and cries* I can't handle it when Luke cries. :(((


N: If you didn't want me to marry Ameera, why didn't you say that when I asked you?!
L: What was I supposed to say, Noah? 'If you love me, don't do it! Send the girl back to Iraq!'
N: Is that how you felt?
L: Why? Does that not sound like the Luke that you fell in love with?
R: *cries* then *snickers* Snarky!Luke is love.


L: When are you going to fight for me, Noah?
N: Are you saying that I never fought for you?
L: ...look, it...
N: Is that what you're saying?
L: ...no... it just...
N: No! What what when you were paralyzed and you didn't want to see anyone, including me?!
L: That was different.
N: Not to me! I stayed. I showed you that I didn't care if you were in a wheelchair or not. I, I did those exercises with you, I helped you learn to walk again. I picked you up when you fell! I never once gave up on you! And now you're here telling me I never fought for you?!

I lovelovelove that Noah basically outlines exactly the battleplan that Luke has been following since NY. Stand by your man and make sure he knows that he's loved. :X


Shell-shocked. :( Also, the director really likes this angle. (S)he's used it lots.


Ignore it's Reg making Luke blush-grin like that and it's so.cute.omg. I wish I could as easily ignore that I really want to cut Luke's hair. That long piece is DRIVING ME NUTTY.


SUCH A GOOD SHOT. The whole camera-sweep-of-the-empty-house-then-ring-close-up was brill. The end of a chapter. YAY!


*pets them both* Fandom has been biting at the bit for this exact situation. It just makes me sad sad sad. If Noah was being a shit, fine. But there's trauma and he just so didn't need to see Luke with another man and feel even more alone that he does. But I can see where it "had" to happen. You'd think I didn't like this scene, but I actually did, hee. It's such a soap! :D

GUUUUHHH. And there's so much more awesomeness that I don't even have time to quote. Y'know, I think one reason this ep felt so satisfying for me--even if we don't have the typical happy ending, I still think that ending was perfect, it was all about the love and how much they want each other, not someone else or to be alone--is that it wasn't all about Luke getting to vent. It let BOTH of them have their say. And they both have v. good points. You could just feel their desperate frustration with the whole situation and how differently each wants to deal with it all and wishing they could feel differently but just can't because it's who they are.

See, I can v. much see only-child!Noah dealing with life's shit by pulling away, wanting to be alone and gather his thoughts. I'm an only and it's EXACTLY what I do. Not that I'm saying EVERY only child would react this way, but it's one reason it makes so much sense to me. Add in his solitary military life growing up, and, wow, so.much.sense.

Also? The Noahhate I've been seeing around baffles me. Especially after this ep. He's mourning! And still HE TOOK OFF THE RING AND WENT AFTER HIS MAN. And, yeah, Colonel Daddy Dearest sucked, but he was still his dad and now he's gone (supposedly, heh) and Noah's grieving and all this is no doubt tied up in his own version of PTSD. Not to mention the anger and guilt. I mean, if nothing else, I'm sure he's wondering what kind of person he is to mourn someone who not only threatened to kill him, but already tried to kill the man he loves. Or what kind of man would be furious at the boyfriend who's trying to do nothing but help him.

It's just this glorious circle of grief and guilt and anger, guh. Makes me just wanna squish him and feed him chicken soup, even though he has not lost a ball. So far. Oh, god, if one of them gets cancer next year, I may need oxygen.

Y'know, I miss Noah having Dusty to talk to. He was his go-to for manly advice. And I've only been watching the rest of the show in fast-foward, but Holden looks a little busy at the mo fucking up his own life. :| (Granted, I don't blame him, considering the new Lily. Bleh.) At least Grandma was there. :X

*rereads all that*

Hi, I'm Ree, I overthink things. We knew this. :">

Also, luke_noah needs to stop posting spoilers in subject lines and icons before I cut a bitch.


New ep tomorrow alkjfa.

ALSO AM SO PROUD OF MY KICK-ASS STATE. ♥ And the photo! Even my ovaries are squeeing. I swear, if I'd had the time, I'd've gone down and watched it happen and try to get invited to all the gay weddings this summer. "I think it's a glorious California morning to make history." Mr. Sulu FTW.