Srsly, wasn't I the one who swore she wouldn't get this far behind again? One day I will be able to keep up with the eps as they happen and not do caffeine-induced mega-posts in the wee hours of the morning after being up all night. Yawwwwn.


ATWT, 3-31

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M5elqvYv7TU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xUNlLdgIAcM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iD6kC5ccfhY


N: What are you doing here?
L: I missed you too?

Best.ep.opener.yet. ♥


AWW, the touching!


OWWW, the touching! We've had this discussion before, Noah. No poking the injured. :P

N: You shouldn't be outta bed.

I'd like to second this, and add a "And Noah should join you. Naked." kthx.


L: It's not that serious.
N: You can't remember what happened!
L: Okay, well, maybe it was a leeetle bit serious.

AHAHAHAHA. Luke. ♥ I still wanna know why you aren't limping at all. I catch this medical ep on Discovery and this guy had been hit by a car like Luke had and his legs were hella broken, yo.


Let's take a moment and behold the hair that is Luke. Swoop like ski slope, hair, swooooop!

L: ...and the hit and run.
N: We aren't sure yet if that's connected.
L: I am. There's no doubt in my mind.

Hang on, I have whiplash from that change in mind.

L: OMG GET OFF WORK EARLY?
N: UM OK BOYFRIEND!

Dude. Java's customers must be used to just going behind the counter and serving themselves by now.

Margo: You all need to lay low until we find out who did this.

Meanwhile, Luke is filming TV spots. :\

H: What if it wasn't a stranger at all?
M: Who?
H: Damian Grimaldi.

OMG THAT IS WHAT I SAID HOLDEN. Though that might be too obvious. :\


I heart the way Van had Luke frowning about the father thing before he even turns around.


N: So, wait, Holden really believes that your father set up the accident?
L: Wait, Holden is my father. *pokes*
N: Okay. *hands up*

And, shocker, but Noah's already showing signs of taking Damian's side. We meet again, daddy issues. :X

L: Damian might not be a covert ops psycho like your dad is, but you don't know what he's capable of.

ALDKFJSALK LUKE. ♥ Also, ouch. True, but ouch. Noah's kinda sensitive about his dad right now. Well, they both are, but you know what I mean.

N: I don't believe he would hurt you.
L: But that's based off a couple conversations you had with him when he was probably lying through his teeth in order to charm you.
N: I'm not so easily charmed.
L: Well, I was able to do it, so it couldn't be that hard.
N: Ahh, trust me. It wasn't your charm.

AFDLKJASDK. I totally believe that Noah nicknamed Luke's dick "Charm" immediately following this conversation.

L: Look, I'm just saying, I know Damian a lot better than you do. And he is not to be trusted.
N: I still don't think he'd arrange for a hit and run on his only son.

I wish we'd get clued in on how much Luke has told Noah about his Damian-past. The more Noah knows, the less likely he would be to press Damian's Operation: I Heart My Gay Son, Really! campaign with Luke.


Yes, I did crack up at Luke's *OMG YAY LOTSA CALLS!* face. :D


Why sure, Luke'd love to meet the donor! Meanwhile, Noah looks over before the footsteps sound aldfkjas.

How in the world did Margo get a warrant to search Damian's car? :| I guess she coulda asked his permission and he granted it. But still, outta the blue there.

Holden: It's exactly the reason why he would do it. Luke doesn't want anything to do with him. So what better way to turn the kid around than to save his life?!

Um, but for that to work, Luke would kinda need to know that Damian was the one who saved him. And Damian bolted. Though that coulda been the plan. Have someone ELSE tell Luke (like Noah later did) that his dad was there but didn't say anything about it himself (like Brian was at the hospital for Justin, but I digress *cough*), and come off all contrite and well-meaing. HMMMM.


That was a dirty set-up. NOT COOL, TV LADY, NOT COOL. Also, that Luke touches Noah's tummy on his way out makes me happy. Even if it was just so he could get by. Still makes me happy!


That cowlick gene is strong in the Grimalynder family.

Holden: ...need to protect Luke and Lily.
Lily: Damian is not after me.
Margo: No, no. We haven't ruled out the hate groups yet. And you did receive that letter.

That box wasn't addressed to anyone. Why are they assuming it was to Lily? Luke lives there, too. :\


N: *do the PSA and neener to daddy!*
L: Look, Noah, you make it sound so easy. But tell me something. Truthfully, if your father showed up and started doing what Damian is doing, how would you feel?

Honestly, I think Noah would love for his dad to just be alive and show up like Damian did. Uh, until the Colonel started trying to shoot his boyfriend again, but, eh, details.


Just cos he looked cute sitting there with his coffee, making his boyfriend laugh. Also, Jake's throaty laugh off-screen right then? GUH.


I love how protective!Noah is lurking, just in case. Best boyfriend evah.


Luke's face when Damian says he's leaving. A little bit of him hoped Damian would stay around. :( Then once Damian is gone, he shakes himself and just, guh. Oh, Luke. Noah was never the only one with the daddy issues, we know. ♥


D: Was nice meeting you, Noah. I'm sorry I didn't get a chance to get to know you better.

The way Noah doesn't say anything as Damian bids him goodbye. Daddy, don't leave me again! :(


Looks like Luke's got one highwater right pantleg, hee. Everyone knows that tends to happen when you have to lunge outta your seat and confront destructive bio-dads.


N: Mud, omg.
L: That's not like my bio-dad, yo.

Oh, no. I recognize that Hardy Boys expression. RESIST ANOTHER MYSTERY, LUCIANO, RESIIIIIST. Also, I come from the fashion school of Brian Kinney. No way would Damian have walked through the MUDDY garden in his bzillion dollar Italian shoes if it weren't for a reason. The whole leaving a trail thing is rather obvious. But then that would make it TOO OBVIOUS and now my brain wants to explode aldfkjas.


N: So you're not even a little bit sorry you can't work things out with your father?
L: No.
N: Really?
L: It's not like I don't wish things could be different. I do. But I know from experience that they can't.
N: It's too bad. He seems... I dunno, interesting.
L: Yeah, well, interesting doesn't seem to cut it when you keep having to pull knives outta your back.

Oh, god, Luke being a brave little toaster and Noah's wistfulness about it all is killing me. Also, I love how they have heart-to-hearts in the middle of the town's coffee shop. :P

That phone is pissing me off. Sucker goes off every time Luke and Noah are talking, dammit. It's like kissinteruptis. :\ (Yes, I know, the storyline wouldn't progress without the calls, but, bleh.)


D: I couldn't get what I came for.
L: :(

OMG THAT BOO BOO KITTY FACE. :( I'm starting to think Noah won't have to do much convincing on Damian's behalf after all.


I love how we get a reaction shot of Luke as Damian facing life in his socks aldfkjsaldfkj!


L: Y'know, that is one of the things that I really love about you. You totally go for that whole 'innocent until proven guilty' thing.
N: Well, I thought you did too.
Ree: Do you even REMEMBER the Elwood arc? *blink*
L: Most of the time. Some people don't deserve it though.
N: Hmn. Maybe this time someone does.
L: I'll see you around.
L: *leaves*
N: *stares at boyfriend's hot ass for a bit*
Ree: WHY WAS THERE NO GOOD-BYE KISS? :| :| :|


D: *pops up like a Pop-Tart*
N: Nice shoes.

HEEEE! But, okay, Damian showing up so fast? Creepy like whoa. He had to have been listening to them the whole time. He heard Noah trying to convince Luke to reserve judgement. Iiiinteresting.

N: I don't know you as well as they do.
D: You seem like a man who makes up his own mind.
N: I try.
D: Then maybe you'll give me a chance to prove myself.
N: I'm not the one you need to convince.
D: Yes, you are. Because you can help me reach my son.
N: Sorry. But you're gonna have to do that for youself.

OMG THE WAY NOAH SAYS THOSE LAST TWO LINES ALDFKASJ. You can feel how hard it is for him to deny Damian this. He wants it for Luke and he wants it for himself and it's just this war inside him. And yet he walks away and I'm so proud! Aside from respecting that Luke asked him to stay clear of Damian, I like to think that Holden warning Luke away from Damian at the police station was still fresh in his mind. Noah's always trusted Holden, especially as a father figure.



ATWT, 4-2

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5tLuPM1RK8c
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k_iRRA0Txqs
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yAZ2n5r0QwE

OMG THIS EP. ♥ ♥ ♥

Also, we will be skipping all the Holden/Lily scenes. They keep having the same circular conversations about Damian. Zzzzzz.


N: Couldn't you have e-mailed me?
L: Yeah, if you ever checked your e-mail.
N: I... check... my e-mail.

Noah's abashed face alfkjasd. Now I want to know about all the e-mails Luke sent that are still sitting in Noah's inbox. Though, really, I can't picture Noah not checking obsessionally if he thought Luke was sending him anything.


L: No, you don't.

His voice aldfkja SO CUTE. Also, whoever is doing his hair has got to stop making that little arrow shape with his bangs.


I mean, really! Look at it! It's like Elvis is alive again.

Random: The show is really saving a lot of money on Jake's wardrobe by having Noah in his uniform like 90% of the time, aren't they? :P

L: Prove to those bigots we're not scared of them anymore.

One sentence and its so telling and powerful and omg. My heart. :(


N: He ask me to talk to you about giving him one more chance.
L: He doesn't stop, does he? Well, what did you say?
N: What do you think I said? I told him no way.
L: Of course you did. Cos you're a good boyfriend.

AND THEN HE RUBS NOAH'S HEAD LIKE A PUPPY ALDKFJASLK. ♥


N: Yeah, but, I think you're making a mistake by not giving him one more chance.

TOUCHING OMG. Y'know, I really love that they have a height difference. I'm sure it's left over from my B/J height obsession, but no matter, still lovin' it!

And something else I love is the rest of their convo, so I'm leaving it all in, woot!


N: Some of the things Damian's done in the past have been really awful. I understand that.
L: No no no. You don't. If you did, you couldn't sit there and ask me to give him another chance.
N: I really think he's being sincere this time.
L: Noah, it's just an act. Trust me, the last thing Damian Grimaldi is is sincere.
N: He told me all he wants is a chance to make things up to you.
L: Yeah, well, last time he was here, all he wanted was the chance to make me straight. You know, he can't make up for that.
N: Not if you won't let him.
L: Look, Noah, I know that you'd love for me to say, Damian, I forgive you, but trust me, it's not that easy.


N: If my dad was still alive and he wanted a real relationship with me--
L: Oh no, I have a real relationship with my dad. And so do you. He's the guy you call Holden Synder. But as far as Damian goes, I have given him enough chances. I am done! Okay?

SO MUCH LOVE FOR WHEN LUKE STANDS UP FOR HIS FEELINGS.


N: ...okay... okay.
L: Okay.

Between Luke's angryface and Noah's sad-regretfulface, I'm all heartbroken. And oddly turned on. :P


Yes, the twins annoy me. :|



But Luke and Noah's Look-o'-Crazy reactions to them = priceless, ahaha!


Hell, yeah, Noah's taken. Fun to see Luke get all *cat sounds* at someone over him. :D


Noah's body language adlfkajs.


N: Everything okay?
L: Yeah, well, if you consider me being put under police protection okay.
N: What?!

Weird! I though Noah would be more YAY about the idea.



N: And then that happened. O.o
L: Wow. O.o

AHAHAHA. Also, yes. O.o


N: Love you.
L: Love you, too.
Ree: *wibbles* Also, I really wanna lick the back of Noah's neck.


L: Hey, are you on your way over?
N: No! It's Damian!
L: You sound freaked out. Did he do something? He didn't try to kiss you, did he?
N: I'm at Java! He's been stabbed!
L: He's-- There's a lot of blood, Luke.

I heart Jake in this scene. Poor Noah was so freaked out. He's gonna start getting a complex. How many times has something like this happened to him now? Luke was shot in the woods and lay at his feet, Luke was harassed by homophobes on the road and ended up on the ground, Colonel Crazy "drowned" in front of him, Reg died at his feet, Elwood lay dying in front of Noah... Just... dude. :| And I'm sure I'm forgetting some!

L: Dad.

The way he says that word, all trembly. OMG. So perfect. :(


N: Well, how bad was the wound?
Nurse: Deep, but the damage was fairly superficial.

I don't think that word means what she thinks it means.


N: Good, um, that's good. Well, his son will be here soon.

Can I just say, Damian is super smart if he really did plan this. No quicker way to get on Noah's Protective List than to be hurt and in need of help. Damian = Ameera v.2.0.

AND THEN LUKE SHOWED UP AND I WALLOWED IN THE DELICIOUS HURT/COMFORT YAY. SRSLY BEST EP THIS WHOLE MONTH.



L: Noah! Are you all right?
N: Yeah, I'm fine.

Noah looks like he's gonna throw up and all the blood and omg. :(


N: *nod, folds in on self*
L: Baby, baby, you're shaking.

So, yeah. "Baby" is now canon. There are not enough :| :| :| in the world right now to fully express how I feel about this.


N: I guess it's just everything catching up to me.
L: Well, do you wanna, do you wanna got sit down? Do you--

Noah does this shock-shiver thing that really got to me. :(


N: No, no. Luke, Damian said he thinks that the people who did this to him, they weren't after him, that they were after you.

He can't look at Luke when he says that, like just the thought of it is too horrible and, omg. :(


N: If this had happened to you, if this was your blood on my shirt, I just--



L: Hey, hey, hey, it's okay, it's okay. I'm okay.
N: *deep breath*
L: *rubs N's temples with his thumb* Okay. Do you wanna go somewhere? Let's get you outta here.

Luke rubs Noah's temples with his thumbs, omg. MY HEART YOU GUYS.


Lovelovelove how Luke just leads him out and Noah's looking down and letting him, trying to keep from flying apart and, omg. Boys. ♥


L: Still don't know why you wanted to come here.

Yeah, me either, Luke. You guys should totally be taking a shower together right now and making my h/c heart sing. Sigh. At least the convo they did have was pretty damned good.


N: Cos I wanted you to see it.
L: See what? The blood stains on the ground outside Java? Why?
N: Cos it was real.

Tell me that isn't the face of some mild PTSD.


L: Noah, I know it was. And I feel so awful that you had to go through that, I do.
N: This is not about me! Forget about me! This is about Damian, he-he almost died. D-Does that mean anything to you?!
L: Noah--
N: No! Do you know the first thing he asked about when he got to the hospital, was you.
L: Yeah, well, I also know that he was following me and you know how I feel about that.
N: He was just trying to make sure you were safe.
L: Will you please stop defending him. Look, I don't know how to say this in a way that you're gonna understand--
N: No, I know. You don't trust him.
L: No. And I don't think I ever will.

I'm on Luke's side with this one, but damn if Noah hasn't convinced me. ;) Of course, it's easier to concentrate on someone else (Luke, in this case) rather than for Noah to keep reliving the stabbing trauma in his head, but still. Gotta give Luke his props for sticking to his guns in the face of ernest!Noah. ;)


N: Well, I know one thing.
L: What?
N: He loves you, Luke. He loves you like a real father.

OMG THAT FACE. :(((( The writers aren't making this whole arc just black and white, 'I hate my dad, the end.', but letting Luke have this buried part of him that still wants that relationship with his father despite it all, and I heart that big time.


L: Yeah, but couldn't he just be saying it to get a rise outta us?
N: So, what! If it keeps you safe, does it matter?

Er, well, yeah, kinda. Cos if Damian is saying it just to get a rise outta them, then there's no real danger and Luke's safe and doesn't need the police protection. But, eh, logic! I'm on Noah's side!


L: *has police guard now* This is exactly what I didn't want.
N: Hey, if it keeps you from taking Damian's place in the hospital bed, I don't care.
L: *glares*

AHAHAHAHAHA. I do believe Noah won that round.



ATWT, 4-7

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KKKjehndvgk
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W2l--0RzbkA


Aww, just Noah seeing the back of Luke's head makes him grin and get all mushy and 'that's my booooyfriiiiend!'. ♥ Though, uh, not a good idea to do your banking for a million dollar foundation in a diner with your screen pointing toward a window, Luciano.

N: Hey, Tood. How's it going? Hey, Luke. How's it going?
L: I'm trying to transfer some money from the Foundation's savings account to the checking account. We have some major checks to pay to that PR firm in Chicago.


Being raised by the Colonel, I'm shocked Noah didn't say hi to ole Officer Cohen on the way in. Cohen even smiles at him! Rude boy, tsk. Well, he was in a hurry to get to his man. Understandable, I guess. ;)


N: Riiiight, the ad campaign. You know, I saw the storyboards for the commercials. They look pretty cool.
L: *gasp* We should get you to direct it!

Directing!Noah, omg. I really wish he'd get a storyline where he gets to actually make a film finally. Or he decides to follow Luke and his family around and film a reality show. :P


Jus cos that smile makes me happy. :X


Just standing there and Luke has to be touching Noah and his hot shoulders. Oh, hell, yeah. ♥

L: I called the bank, they said they're working on it, but it seems like someone was trying to break into the accounts.

So basically Zac really is a sucky hacker since the bank managed to foil his plans, y/y?


Zac: Hey, Monster.
N: :|

Hee. Also, WTF. Monster? :|

Why is Luke telling the Twins about the foundation's money situation? THEY'RE FREAKIN' VOLUNTEERS, NOT BOARD MEMBERS. :|

Z: Hackers are the worst. They should be sentenced to life in prison without internet access.

Something tells me that's gonna be a self-fulfilling statement there, Z.


Luke goes to leave -- and tells Luke to stay! I-- BUT-- BAD BOYFRIEND, BAD! Least they're holding hands, aw.

L: You're in good hands.
N: Thaaanks. *I will slowly kill you later look*

Hee.

Wait, how is Noah doing all this deposit/withdrawal detective work, the entire account should still be frozen. Hmm, guess the banks work faster in Oakdale.



That is some serious thinking right there. ;)


L: *barges into Damian's room all casual like* Mom? What the hell are you doing?

Whoa, Luke, what happened to knocking? O.o And why are you even there to begin with?

L: Why are you letting him get to you?
Lily: He's not getting to me.
L: He always makes you feel bad for him. Why are you defending him?!
Lily: All I was trying to was keep the man from bleeding to death. I owe him that much!
L: No, you don't! After what he's done in the past, after what he's doing right now, you don't owe him a damned thing!

I wish we had a wider view, cos you can hear luke smacking his hand into his palm in time to his words. I WANNA SEE EET.


Zoe: You trusted him with a computer? He doesn't know what he's doing.

Uh-huh, sure.

Twins: *fight to distract Noah away from the computer, camouflaged as stupidest fight ever over who's more braindead*
N: What's wrong with you two?
Z: Nothing. Zoe just gets emotional. She'll forget the whole thing in three seconds. We're both like that.
N: You mean insane.

AHAHAHA. Also, omg, foreshadowing. :\


OMG NOAH'S BEEN LIP RAPED. D:



And was rightfully pissed off about it, too. Mmm, pissed-off!Noah.


Jake is just kicking ass with the body language acting. *nod nod*



Z: Aww, what's the matter, Noah? Have you never been kissed before? I'm gonna have to speak to that boyfriend of yours. He must be falling down on the job.

Whoa, that glare and then how Noah clenches his fist as he turns.


L: *comes in*
Z: Ah, your ears must be burning.

Noah's D: face when Luke comes in, omg. You didn't do anything wrong, Noah! *pets*


If I were the overanalyzing type, I would totally notice how telling their positions are here, with Noah sitting, looking down, and Zac looming over him. But I don't overanalyze. Nope, not me. I neeeever do that. :">


Twins: *bookstore, see ya, losers*
L: Whatcho talking 'bout, Willis? Ooookay, what was that about?


N: Zac kissed me.

Again, he can't bring himself to look at Luke. Aww, woobie.


L: What?

THE WAY LUKE SITS BACK AT THE NEWS LIKE HE'S BEEN PHYSICALLY PUNCHED OMG. And I don't blame him. Until then, he'd been the only boy who'd ever kissed Noah (that we know of, heh) and that was really sweet and special, y'know? And then Zac happened and fucked it all up. >:(


N: It was no big deal.
L: No big deal? Last time you say someone kiss me, you punched them in the face.

AHAHAHAHA. And he'd do it again, too!


N: Heh, that was sooo different. Are you jealous?
L: *pause* Should I be?
N: Luuuke, come on!

I love that expression, hee.


Hey, that's a new cop over Noah's shoulder shadowing 'em.


N: Okay, what else is going on?

Awww, he can tell when his woobie is being weird about something.


L: I'm sorry. It's just, between walking in on Damian and my mother and hearing Zac was KISSING you I - I'm RATTLED.
N: You don't have to worrry about me and Zac ever. EVER.
Ree: AHAHAHAHA.



L: Trust me, you don't have anything to worry about.

THE CUDDLING HAS KILLED ME DED. Luke listening to Noah's beating heart, omg. :X :X :X :X

And then we get the Twins running into Damian.

T: You're a real monster. And not the good kind. You're a bad monster.
Zoe: *stick tongue out*
Z&Z: *run off giggling*
D: WTF. :|
Ree: WTF. :|

Well, huh. I was expecting them to know each other. The plot thickens.